Prothonotary

Waves of thoughts and emotions crash over like tides on the beach My shelter that I have built is slowly washing away Stick by stick, branch by branch Slowly breaking away, floating off to sea. Lighthouse shines through the night like a beacon of hope for the restless and weary Those piercing eyes shining through the beaten and battered shelter of my emotions Staring into my being and my soul, seeing what really makes me the person that I am today No distrust no doubt of true help in the torrid storm and rough seas The storm is welcomed and very much needed However, the shelter, which long before stood, is now torn apart Its pieces

I'm sorry for whatI did, I'm sorry for who I was. I can make up excuses, I can try to blame it on something else... But it's still my fault.... I know I shouldn't have done that, I know that I went to far. I know that i shouldn't have been there, I know that I shouldn't have brought you... But you were right there with me... I know that I hurt you when I wasn't me, I know that I lost your trust that night. I know that I lied about my life, I know that i wasn't honest from the start... But I can't make it up to you.... I know that you liked me, I know that we could have worked. I know that i screwed up, I know that it's gone.

The pain I've felt in life is too much for some to bear. I have had friends I *thought* I knew, surprise me by taking their life in front of my eyes, I have had some that I love; hurt me by tearing out my heart, I have had my own family turn against me, verbally and physically, I have had those that I trusted; betray me in the worst means possible. I had the chance to have it all…. but I could never grasp it, I had the chance to be great, but I am only marginal at best. I have had the best of friends recently pass away, Those that I could talk with and those that I could have fun with…. Gone in the blink of an eye. I once had someone

Where were you when I was tormented in skool¿ When all you thought of me was just a fool Where you when I could not take it anymore¿ When all I though about was revenge Where were you when I need you the most¿ When I hit the bottom of depression Where were you when all I saw was fear¿ When I couldn't get out of this living hell Where were you when I went into seclusion¿ When all I witnessed was a delusion Where were you when I ended it all¿ When I had pulled the trigger and fell.

antisocial dressed in black thinking of death with no turning back slits his wrists because they tell him to clenches his fists painfull things to do today they will pay they will understand today is my day with death in his hand his head held high for the very first time he walks proudly with a purpose never seen them shed a tear all eyes are on him and they are all full of fear with the sound of several shots and a fall to the floor he told them how he felt the pain sank deep everyone wishing it to be done as he rocked them to sleep to the sound of a gun.

I need a break from it all, I want it all to end, The pain, The memories, The suffering, The sickness, The death, The anguish. I need a break from the world, A break from my feelings, A break from my life, A break from myself. Pain is the only thing that helps me now, That takes me away from reality, Away from it all, Away from my past wrongs, Away from the mistakes I have made, Away from what I have done to other people, Away from the lives I have ruined, Away from the lives that could have been, Away from the LIFE that could have been. If I end it now, everything will be fine, There will be no more pain or memories to

I was alone and in the dark, Just wasting away, Piece by piece Slowly fading, slowly dying, My soul had died, My mind was a mess. Just melting away. But then you came and made it light. You picked me up and put me back, Back the way I was. My soul was revived as it saw the new light, My mind returned to a working state. The world looked new, fresh and alive. The days were brighter, colours crisper, air fresher. All because you came into my life and saved me from myself. ~ Scott W. DeVries

Where would I be without you? I would be back in my room, Back in the dark, Pushing everyone away, Letting no come close Letting nothing get through, Through the dark shroud in my life. Where would I be without you? I would be alone. No one to talk to, No one to listen to, No one to be there, No one to be around, No one to hold me close and tell me they care. Where would I be without you? I would be forever lost, In my own dark and familiar world… Of pain and misery, Of suffering and isolation, Of loneliness and despair. Where would I be without you? I would be dead. ~ Scott W. DeVries

They told me you didn't love me, They told me you didn't care, They told me you were only using me, They told me you were dishonest, They told me to be weary of the things you say, They told me to run as far away as I could, They told me LIES!! I know you love me, I know you care, I know you would never use me, I know you would never lie. I have listened to everything you have said, I have only run to you, I have tried to get as close to you as possible, I LOVE YOU!! But they think I don't know what love is. I'd fight for you, I'd die for you, I'd give everything I have away to be with you. I told them they were wrong, I to

When I look into your eyes, I see love. When I look at your face, I see a beautiful woman. When I look at your smile, I feel loved. When I am around you, the problems melt away. When we talk, I can just open up and pour out my heart. When we kiss, Wow!! What a feeling. The feeling that you are close and you will never leave. The feeling that you and I are in love with each other. The feeling that we can go through anything together. Though you may get butterflies and I might get a little nervous, I still love you no matter what! We can make it together, Through the thick and the thin. Just a small saying that I borrowed, 'A wal